you can't read your smile; it should be written on your face

Do you ever walk out of situations and thing 'that would only happen to me'. Not in the sense that I think I am so unique or special that there are actual 'Michelle situations' .... but you know what - that is what I am getting at. I put myself in situations, and then when I retell the story, I don't even make it to the punch line, and people are already in shock.
I guess the main questions is why?
I have no clue.
Do you ever do things, and it seems okay in the moment, and then you sit up in bed at 9:10 am and think huh?? The sunlight brings with it a strange sense of clarity. Even in the most sober of situations, things done at 2am hardly seem bad compared to how they seem at 2pm the next day. Is there a name for this anomaly? How is it that judgment is so cloudy and then so clear... there is no regret... just that an act can seem so kosher in the moment, and a few hours later seem so 'fucked'? I think what I am getting at is this... if you do not regret an action, and if you had to do it over you would do the same, why does it seem so sketchy now, and not in the moment? Is there repressed regret in there that I just cannot see? ... i cannot put my finger on how i feel.
If anything, I actually feel great... can I scratch that whole last paragraph? I am restating my current position. It seemed okay in the moment, but so unusual now. That sounds more like how I feel. No guilt, no do overs, just shock.....
its funny how writting gets you to your real feelings sometimes.

On an aside, someone ate a subway sub in my car. As in the ordered it, ate in, threw out the garbage.... no spills, no half sub lingering for hours. My car smells of sub still. I am sort of concerned about what subway is putting into there subs, better yet, do I smell like that after eating a sub? If so, subway and I are over. My car currently smells like onions, alcohol, and vague tinch of stale cigarettes.... its like a cougar.

fin!