Suburban Crack

Everyone has their habits right? You bite your nails, you chew your gum, you smoke, you smoke too much, you smoke weed, you do coke, whatever... everyone has their habits.
When does a habit become bad? or too much.... what about emotional habits. Are we as people suseptable to habitually becoming self-loathing. Is this a habit? What if you get addicted to doing things that feel good in the moment but are regretable later? Isn't that what most material habits end up as? A smoker will in most cases eventually try to quit. The cravings get really bad and they give in, and in that moment it is fantastic, but then what?, a week later - a day later - an hour later - in the middle ... it creeps in.... that shitty feeling.
What happens when your habits aren't socially deemed unacceptable. What if your habits are walking around all day with someone. How do you break a habit that no one can see? What happens if that habit out weighs not having that habit?
Do you ever think about yourself as a unit and not really know how it all happened? I feel like the last two years have been this blur and I just have these photograph like memories of it all. Sometimes I feel like its all escaping me so fast, the days, the months, its like this drain effect....
I thought a lot about my teenage years today, i went on this nostalgic trip all afternoon with a friend.... we shared our pasts.... i think it was a way for us to both hide from the future.

fin.