reckless abandonment

I have, and will always be a firm believer (in theory) of knowing your limits and then sort of constructing yourself around those borders. I never really understood people that were always pushing themselves into failure ... almost like this devastating self fulfilling prophecy.

So why do we do it then? we know our sane limit, we know what 'gets' us, then why do we (we as in I) still feel the need to push those boundaries?

I've always had this daredevil need inside of me... when i am afraid of something it pushes me to run twice as fast into the situation. Its like this adrenaline junkie thing..... how badly will this hurt? LETS DO IT!

So then I pose this to myself .... if i know that i can only drink a certain amount before i make an ass out of myself, and i know that i can only work out x amount of time before i throw up, and i know i have to be asleep at 11pm to get up for work in the morning ... and i can behave, and follow these self preserving rules than WHY must i have such a hard time accepting this logic in other parts of my life?

In other news, I feel so normal lately.

fin