I'll be gone till september

The most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous.

fin

good-bye summer

well my dears!!!

teddy is doing wonderful

jersey shore is on tonight !

coconut shake thursday !

bahamas until labour day !

ps- i am knitting an EPIC baby blanket

knit knit knit

see you in september lovers xo 

fin

a day in the life

Welcome to Teddy's day:

sleeping in ...

knitting in bed...

looking suave...

bathin'...

***Pooping, hair ball, and eating pictures omitted as per teds' request 

fin

no name

My cousin and I lost someone very close to us almost 7 months ago to the day.   We talked about them for an hour today and it is still so devastating.  It made me realize that every time I moan about insignificant things and people that ... life is way way way too short.

fin

tie me up

I am the head band queen - mostly to cover my stylin roots - but also because I have such thin hair that i need to jazz up whats going on ha ha

SO i present the oversized bow head band:

now i can look adorable every day ha ha

fin

UPDATE :

Anna wanted a more work appropriate version of the bow tie, so i whiped this up for her tonight:

fin!!

Le scaphandre et le papillon

Anna and I rented The Diving Bell and the Butterfly today - SUCH a beautiful movie and story - i was so taken with it

that and i have a crush on all french women

if you ever want a good night in - this is definitly the movie for you

fin

Whats-a-macall-it

Looky look 

I knit something new! 

it is out of a bamboo silk mix, and I wore it last night with a strapless dress!

I love it

It is just a loose, oversized, light cardigan, and it turned out better than I could have hoped... i love knitting more and more

.... on to the next

fin!

watch them float away

I am so anti social.... to a fault.  I seriously loath going out, or rather the thought of going out. Once I am out its easier, I have an okay time, but the older I get the more I just don't have the desire to be around people that are not real friends.  I think this is probably a symptom of my anxiety, and the (I tried to articulate the people I wanted to stay away from, but it just ended up falling short) self-important attention whores (?) that run in the crowds I end up being around.  I get so lost in my own thoughts, that I actually cannot form words about what is going on inside. Somehow snipits of who I am end up in the world. Just in strands really, that are misconstrued and over analyzed, which further my desire to just go to bed at 9pm.  There is this movie I like where the girl is on an interview and the interviewee asks her, Who is "her name".... and the girl blurts out "I don't know!" and runs out of the office.  I feel that.  I somehow got so quiet.

Also, I feel a little bit lost over where I belong.  It seems that the only way to stay out of trouble in that town is to wear a baseball hat, huge sunglasses, and be in by dark.  I always maintained it was better to have loved and lost, but to what end?  When you actually cannot escape someone, I think it was better to just have never even been introduced in the first place.  If I knew that the unhappiness he has wedged between me and my world would go this far, and begin to cause the internal seclusion I feel lately, I seriously would have run in the other direction and moved to Montreal (or further!).  

So here it is, how do you escape someone you are constantly being chained too?  What if you do all the right things, avoid all the right places, make new friends, leave things on civil terms ... and you get whiped back to them.  What if the place you felt the safest in before gets infiltrated by enemy grounds.... where do you go when your rock, your men switch teams..... they start to 'sleep' with the enemy

where do i go

where do i get to feel safe

nothing is fair in love and war

and my friends it gets worse every year

fin