Tuesday, April 7, 2009

a good friend with bad habits

I somehow pulled a shoulder muscle last night
I do not how i did that
I must have a weak shoulder or something ... I feel like I have already done this earlier this year... balls.

It is just like a bad fucking week ha ha ha ha

I have this trait about myself that I hate.  I have a really really hard time forgiving people.  Like REALLY hard time.  I think it is a self preservation mechanism.  I just (from experience) find that once someone does something extremely harsh, they are likely to repeat the behaviour.  That and I feel like I hold a grudge, and I don't like being in a friendship where i feel like I resent the other person.  I wish I could just let things go, and move on - forgive and forget right?  I am incapable.  I have been burned too many times by petty people, and now I just have a one big strike and you are out policy.  I am not talking about the small stuff.... I am not unreasonable .... I just feel like if trust is gone, what friendship is there to salvage?
It just stings a little bit harder when you held that person quite close.

I so wish it was my fourth year and  I was graduating in April ... but I am going to make the most of my last summer ... I am SO looking forward to Heather coming home .... I feel like between that and my trip over seas that September will be here before you know it....

oh oh oh! also i brought my old school keyboard back to Toronto with me... I started to teach myself a song last night.. I am stoked on this
I am also stoked on my roof top patio......bbq, hot tub, sun.....come to me summer.... commmmmeeee tooooooo mmmmeeeeeee

fin

ps- in anticipation of passover I have eating 1.5 bagels today..... carbs 4 lyfe

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