you say i'm crazy, i got your crazy

I have decided to start blogging again on a regular basis.  I am fairly sure only 3 people read this, and it has become some sort of a vauge diary for me.  I like going back and seeing how i was doing this time last year... and i don't want to take that away from myself next year.  SO, I am coming back people.

Toronto is treating me well.  I really can't complain.  I have had a weird few months though, some major life changes.  Ending a long term employment - moving - having a best friend move a pond away.... it is all very different now.  I know this is nothing new, but i feel EXTREEEEEMLY stagnant lately.  I know that only I can make that better... I mean sitting around thinking 'next year will be better' really doesn't get anything done... I just think I have become complacent, which was once a huge fear, and now just sort of feels right.  I think back to when I used to go out every night of every weekend.... and sure I had a lot of fun - but I am not sure I miss it.  I lived in hamilton for two years (post university graduation), and in those two years I met a lot of new people who were really fun, and exciting, but they really were not real friends.  In the end, I am fairly certain I walked away from that situation with a broken heart, and the real friends I had walking into it.  So, why should I rejoin that world, or a similar world here in Toronto? So that I can party with a bunch of fake people, and fall in love with a self obsessed loser?  I think my complacent, homebody knitting lifestyle looks way way way more appealing..... but then I think I am wasting my pretty on TLC and Brennan

what to do

whhhhat to do

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