fuckity fuck fuck

rutty rut rut

i like my job

i hate my job

i like my job

i hate mu hjob

ilike myjob

iahte my jiab

iliek hny hoebe

ih ahte my job

il ike my job

mostly i can't think of anything better to do

.... as in if i quit tomorrow morning i would probably be really bored and broke

two things i dislike

i like my job

i like my job

i like my job

i like my job i like my job

i want to take up glass blowing

maybe in the summer when my heart is cold and my feet are hot

fin

shit man

i had by far the worst friday in the world

i really love my job, i actually cannot imagine being anything else other than a nurse .... but for some reason i seek out the type of jobs that are high stress, and full of crazy hormonal women who are angry and spending all their money on private health care ..... i spent all day running around ... ALL DAY. while getting ragged on by stressed out doctors and staff from every direction wanting to get home .... ha ha who works from 7am until 6pm on a friday without taking a drink of water or going pee

but then i went to my pottery lesson and made three mugs!

and now here i am 11:09 pm and anxious with diharea

this is why i need to become a professional potter / knitter / cat woman

and relaaazxxxx

fin

twenty eleven

woooahhhh

lets hope 2011 was like 2007

but blonder!

horrah!

fin

ugh

f u stomach flu

fin

consequence of sound

here is it !

my top 10 albums of 2010

10) Arcade Fire- The Suburbs

9) Beach House - Teen Dream

8) Drake - Thank Me Later

7) Joanna Newsom - Have One On Me

6) Vampire Weekend - Contra

5) Broken Bells - Broken Bells

4) Broken Social Scene - Forgiveness Rock Record

3) She & Him - Volume II

2) Spoon - Transference

1) Black Keys - Brothers

honorable mentions!

- The National - High Violet

- Kanye West - My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy

- Hot Chip - One Life Stand

- Yeasayer - Odd Blood

fin!

reckless abandonment

I have, and will always be a firm believer (in theory) of knowing your limits and then sort of constructing yourself around those borders. I never really understood people that were always pushing themselves into failure ... almost like this devastating self fulfilling prophecy.

So why do we do it then? we know our sane limit, we know what 'gets' us, then why do we (we as in I) still feel the need to push those boundaries?

I've always had this daredevil need inside of me... when i am afraid of something it pushes me to run twice as fast into the situation. Its like this adrenaline junkie thing..... how badly will this hurt? LETS DO IT!

So then I pose this to myself .... if i know that i can only drink a certain amount before i make an ass out of myself, and i know that i can only work out x amount of time before i throw up, and i know i have to be asleep at 11pm to get up for work in the morning ... and i can behave, and follow these self preserving rules than WHY must i have such a hard time accepting this logic in other parts of my life?

In other news, I feel so normal lately.

fin

ode to menz

big hearts break easy, and i have a huge one. got to take it easy on me.